When I am finally seeing truth, everything made sense. It started as another dark night of the soul, which I thought, was occurring. The tears were different this time, and I felt blissful, as if accepting a truth, I knew all along. It was if my pineal gland or third eye blew wide open.
I had lifted and seen beyond the veil for the first time. It was extremely enlightening. My life felt right for the first time, and I was alone. I now often find this same bliss or lifeforce surging through me with pure love. The best way to describe it is an internal cosmic orgasm, as if God gave me another gift. I feel so blessed to have received a spontaneous spiritual awakening. The cause of it I knew was from years of mental suffering. It too came from extreme self-healing from a spina surgery I had early last year. I can now feel the cerebrospinal fluid moving through that part of my spine, too, with continual healing. I accept that God had something to do with this ephiphany. Hence, some who work in the psychological field would say was my higher self.
When I Am Finally Seeing Truth, a Whole New Universe Opens Up for Me
Either way, it gave me tremendous insight, wisdom, and the better ability to figure things out. Though, sometimes, I still take dreadful things that happen to me personally like I have done in the past. I still have some ego, but it will not be easy letting go. It is because there are people, I want to be human with and not be above them in any way. I am turning sixty-seven soon, and I would like companionship of a woman, to be my last love in life. I am not worried about it because there is still time that could happen for me.
Thus, I do want to learn new things and do things I have not done before. I want to live without limiting beliefs, but I know many of the women today only want a Christian man. I cannot now say I am or that I am religious, but spiritual is how I feel right now. From what I know, the women wanting relationships are making too many expectations for me. I am not in any way ready for that kind of relationship. An article from Medium about seeing the truth in someone expains it well. https://medium.com/@joweeybj/when-you-finally-see-someone-for-who-they-really-are-5ce52e59354d
Spiritual Awakening Is Difficult to Explain and Makes Life a Little More Challenging
At this point in my life, I am taking life one day at a time and letting everything happen naturally. I will not change for anyone, nor do I want anyone to change for me. Though, I want love between me and her, whoever she is to be sacred. Too, I hope it does not take away but add to the bliss I already have. This, for us is going to be a slow process if it is to occur before my physical death. I know now is an illusion. Glimpses of eternity are very real but not fearful. In another post I wrote, taking about familiarity may better describe part of the summary of this post https://paulwylie.net/resurrecting-familiarity-and-finding-home/