First impressions sometimes pan out, and I thought she was the one. For a while, it seemed magical, and then eventually reality set in. I became less of a priority in her life because I tried iniating, but her reaction became less than romantic. Even today, she and I are not ready to be with each other, and for me, that is okay. Though, she triggered a spiritual awakening in me while she helped me to recover in my self-healing from surgery. I am not sure if she triggered or is vital part of why it happened, but it did. I thank her for that and would love for her to come to this beautiful level of spirituality with me. It would be her choice to do so. Free will is her choice, and God is guiding her as well in her journey to heaven or enlightenment.
Letting go, for me, is still difficult but much easier after losing so many loves in life. I hope there is a day before I physically die, a woman will come into my life. I deserve a woman, who matches my spirit and intellect, and that she accepts my declining physical abilities. Too, she must understand my emotions are strong, but i have become emotionally intelligent. When it comes to my anger, there is little if any because I am more empathetic in nature.
First Impressions May Pan Out
I have strong intuition and can sense people before they are aware of it. That is why I do not have any best friends right now or feel close to anyone. My family and friends from my past believe I am the same and will interact with me at their comfort. Thus, I will try my best to try and remain loving in words and actions. I will remain silent knowing I could stir a dangerous fire respecting how I spiritually awakened. It is difficult to explain with words and takes time to understand unless you have known me a while.
Here is a link related to first impressions in Psychology Today at https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/beyond-school-walls/202304/unlocking-the-hidden-potential-of-first-impressions
Therefore, as I said at first, love at first sight or the fact that first impressions may pan out and fate or destiny are not part of my reality. I see myself moving forward in better ways than remaining stagnant in this current reality. I am still loving every moment I spend with you, or anyone else that comes into my life.
Here is a link to another post I wrote about making choices at https://paulwylie.net/the-personal-choices-we-make/
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