My dark night of the soul has initiated. God gave me a purpose, and the ego is starting to dissolve a little already. Ever since my cosmic internal orgasmic kundalini awakening late last year, the real or shadow work on myself is beginning.
There are people who believe I am a devil worshipper because I do not practice any religious faith or believe in the bible. Even some of the faithful of my now non-practicing religion of Catholicism may think I am a heretic. I am like some of the greatest minds in the world’s history. Even later in high school, I became more philosophical than theological. I do not give a rat’s posterior what people think of me because that is their problem and projection, not mine. Anyway, what anyone else on this earth thinks is none of my business. A similar post about kundalini awakening.
The dark night of the soul in Catholicism is what many of the now venerated Saints went through during their lives. In a way, mine is similar because I am seeing my demons face-to-face. Thus, I give into my human faculties or desires rarely, which makes me more of a sinner than a saint.
Carl Jung Was a Dark Night of the Soul Practitioner
Catholics also believe in purgatory or that place between heaven and hell, and I know that is what this earth is, as well as a classroom where we are all learning. I am living in between realms currently or at this moment, which is walking the line between heaven and hell. Hell, created by man to create fear, which is an exceptionally low vibrational earth frequency. Fortunately, there are some older spiritual practices like shamanism from many years ago. This practice is still alive today that were here before any religion ever began. For some reason, I have sensed in myself a little bit of shamanic spirit. I guess because I experienced a difficult and challenging mental affliction for many years. In other words, I experienced a psychotic spiritual awakening from heavy drug and alcohol abuse along with unrecorded trauma I experienced in the military.
What happens in a dark night of the soul? Well, lots of sadness in solitude, which some may call loneliness. Continual tears and headaches as well as less sleep, mostly at night, but still feeling okay in the daytime if active and do not continue to stay inside all the time. Your friends and family may question you and ask why if they do not understand and think giving me advice is what they should do. I will listen, but everything I do must come from a gut feeling or sacral intuition. Also, I even use a little bit from the mind’s eye or pineal gland. My peripheral vision picks up different entities, which sometimes come right in front of me.
God Is Calling My Spirit Home
I can sense spirits and energies because of my empathetic nature. Orthodox and prominent limited belief religions even teach this is from the devil, as well as the spontaneous kundalini or spiritual awakening, which means snake or serpent, awakening I received. For me, it is a God decision not based any faith or beliefs that are not mine.
I am not atheist or agnostic, but I do accept them as another part of my life. I have and can still see things no one else can. My visions and thoughts are mostly my own now, but now I have lessened overthinking. Sleep is becoming more normal without the need for melatonin.
I am changing myself for the better but not in compliance with any other person and what they believe in changing themselves for the better. That is why they argue and believe in a certain way thus causing strife and conflict among everyone else including me.
There is a true loneliness after spiritually awakening.