My last love in this life must be from God. If not, then it is not meant to be. She and I are each other’s ‘One.’ We are on a deeper level than soulmates, referred to as ‘Twin Flames.’ Soulmates often do not last in this physical life, but they are here to teach us something about relationships but on an egoic level. Two independent souls with some form of attraction but still living in separation, no matter how far the relationship goes in life.
God blessed me in ways that are difficult to describe. After years of mental affliction and suffering, I had kundalini awakening late last year, which creates sacred sex or the feeling thereof. I was also on a journey of self-healing from having two spinal vertebrae replaced early last year. It was spontaneous, and now I am studying practices like Kama Sutra, which are sexual techniques for couples and Tantra to get a better understanding of sexuality that became prominent in my life after my epiphany. I still would like to keep our joining sacred in respect to Catholic Christianity, or marriage, called Holy Matrimony, but in the sense of other beliefs, even other forms of Protestant Christianity, will keep consummation pure between her and me. My last love in life will be of God.
My Last Love in Life Must Be From God
The kundalini awakening allowed me to feel a beautiful and spiritual orgasm. Any relationship I have from now will only practice sacred sex. It is a feeling I have not felt before that was way beyond the pleasure of physical. This woman, if she exists in my current lifetime, and I will make love that will be both physical and spiritual orgasmic in nature. I am more capable, as a man, that I have ever been before of making this happen. Hence, I am in control. Thus, I can produce the internal sexual or blissful orgasmic energy any time now. I suppress my need for sex does not create a habit, which is morally and religiously wrong.
I pray to God about this, and even Jesus Christ, who I know dwells inside of me. Therefore, I do not believe the fabricated or conditioned belief of celibacy. My and our goal, as a couple is oneness with God. It will be sacred sex. My last love in this life must be from God.
The world may be my limit or restriction for achieving any of this I just mentioned. If so, then “so be it,” or Amen.