Howdy! I lived a life not often easy, and my name is Paul, or that is the name given to me by my parents with suggestions by others. Over the past sixty-something years, I have worn many titles from high achieving ones to the not so good ones of common folk. The toughest titles to wear are psychological, which means you become a person that does not have much decision in anything. You must comply with everyone and their thoughts or words of you. It is a time of extreme vulnerability for you, as a highly stigmatized person.
Anything I Write, Say, or Do Is Not About Me
Some of these titles are almost life-long, unless you drastically change your life for the better or spiritually awaken. You get into a state of open-mindedness and out of limited beliefs. Though, to prevent ostracization by family and friends, you must remain a conventional person. Most of your friends and family do not enjoy you being different, and that is okay. When about me and my way of continuing to be the same for family and friend, it makes us more comfortable and not a problem on my part.
All my life not often easy, I did not hang onto best friends or prioritized, except by my mama. Yes, the latent mama’s boy I was for a long time, until my mother’s passing in 2013. In 2014, I both graduated college and got married for the first time, divorced a little over two years later. There is a possibility that I may further my college education, but for marriage, I am not too keen on doing that again. Regarding me in that last statement, I will never say never because that means it will happen.
Life Is About Me Learning
I grew up poor to middle class and attended a Catholic educational system through the twelfth grade. The overall focus priorty, at an all-boys high school was to become good husbands and fathers. That never happened to me because I was the creative type, art and music. Too, I got heavily into substance abuse, flunked out of college, and joined the military and made my life difficult. I am still paying karmic debt today from all those years I wasted by only learning challenging life lessons, which in truth that did make life not often easy.
At the age of forty-seven, which is about the year 2006, I had a mid-life crisia thus, going back to college. I excelled and received a 4.0 grade point average in junior college. In the 1990s, I went back to the same college, the University of Arkansas at Little Rock and flunked again. It was not until 2009, when I finally graduated with an associate of applied science degree from Pulaski Technical College.
Fall of the same year, I started back again to the University of Arkansas at Little Rock accepting academic clemency. It was because of all fails before and not properly withdrawing from courses previously. Thus I received failing grades, which means I could not graduate with honors. After about five years I did graduate with a B average, which was over a 3.0 GPA. For me, I could not always be simple and made life not often easy for myself.
If Anything, Be Authentic
During my two-year marriage, I was co-owner with my ex-stepson in a technology repair business. It ended about a month after my divorce. I started working for the information technology department of Walmart up in Bentonville. After about six months still living there in 2017, I worked at Staples in Rogers for a fleeting time.. Then I got a job in Pine Bluff with the Arkansas Department of Corrections, also in the IT department. I moved in with a friend in North Little Rock, and worked there for about a year and a half.
Regarding me and my home state, This is the start of my Arkansas page.
More to come...