I have been awake all my life until the world started conditioning me. This conditioning or limited process of life started when I was seven, and my biological father passed. I, baptized an infant did not have the choice of what religion I could be, except Catholic. Kindergarten was mostly crafts and art, which I thoroughly enjoyed. I also had a keen sensitivity in my hearing, as I explained in the a previous post https://paulwylie.net/i-was-clairaudient-until-the-age-of-seven/.
My daddy’s death was tragic, especially for a hypersensitive seven-year-old boy. That is the day the loud ringing in my ears started and is still with me today. I am about to get some hearing aids that totally obliterate the ear ringing. It will make me clairaudient again when I was fully awake in life. Because of that and other reasons, I will not wear them all the time.
The noise of clear hearing can be overwhelming, especially if the noise is from other realms or dimensions. I learned as a good Catholic boy, being psychic is not real and is a cause for questioning my religious faith and God, which is heretical. Religion has conditions and has often tried to make me less awakened. Here is a post about Awakening the Child Inside.
Even high school and college, and the brainwashing of serving in the military has prevented me from staying awake in life. I admit the addictions to harsh street drugs and alcohol would put me to sleep, but this kind of sleep is not true. St. Teresa of Avila had a spiritual ecstasy, which is very similar to my kundalini awakening.
I Have Been Awake All My Life
When I got out of the military, the conditioned veteran administration health system determined by conditioned doctors, who practice western medicine determined I was of two minds. At that point, I would have been better off born into an indigenous people. Thus, I would have naturally became a shaman. Chaotic mind is a form or spiritual awakening or ecstasy labeled as an illness.
There is so much wrong and injustice I suffered, and to start awakening late last year was a gamechanger. I am breaking through to who I really am, now. Each day is getting better, as well as my approach to life and mastering myself to live in this conditioned world.
I do not disbelieve in Jesus Christ, but I see all religions as seeking the same goal, which is to become awake and one with God in eternal life. Buddhists worship God internally while Christians seek God as more of an external Supreme Being, which is a misunderstanding. I strive to keep a Christlike heart and at my current age of sixty-six keep my relationships sacred, especially with women.