Love is a feeling of God being present. For me, it usually happens with someone over time. There are certain people in my life where this feeling becomes stronger, every time we get together. Here is another post about how we must be attentive to cutivating God's presence.
My one and only marriage taught me to love the wrong way. It was an infatuation and more of an animal attraction. The sexual desire was lustful but not fulfilling for me. I had to try other avenues of pleasuring myself at the time, because even though as beautiful a woman she was, there was no spark when we had sex. That was over ten years ago, and a few months after the divorce, I had a sexual fling with a woman for a brief time after I moved over two-hundred fifty miles away. That, too, was not particularly great. It was a time when my information technology career blossomed. We must always form sacred relationships.
Today, I still would like to have a woman partner, at least. Our relationship must include God and this ever growing feeling of God being present when we are together. I now know that love does not happen at first sight or too quickly, at least for me. Love is that amazing feeling of God being present when I am with her. That is why finding love online, which some people swear by, will never be the way for me. I met my former wife at eHarmony, one of the original dating applications.
Love Is a Feeling of God Being Present
Today there is so much porn and adult dating sites. I do not like all the exploitation of women making money off men’s lustful desires. These sites are usually a place where no one meets, but men pay and women reap the benefits by sharing images and videos of sexual nature while getting paid. It is a faulty program of a hedonistic environment. Love is this wonderfully beautiful feeling of God being present.
I have some woman friends, who are single that this feeling of God being present is becoming stronger when I am around them. I still do not know if they feel the exact same way, and there are one or two I almost know have an infatuation with me but is not true in the sense of love.
True Love Is from God but Not Lustful
I honestly know if I am to have a final love with an incredible feeling of God being present, with a woman, it will happen naturally. There will be no need of words, just being present with each other is enough and of course, God always being present.
Too, I must be real and her and me must learn to stay loving even with each other’s imperfections as humans. Nurture sacred relationships. So many couples nowadays cannot get past this and get into the same cycles with other people after the breakup or divorce. Each day is unique in awakening.
Communication is key, and even I must work on myself to lessen any egoic drama I tend to put out. That is why my continuing spiritual awakening is a beautiful thing. As a man. because the selfless self-love is one of my closer connections with God.